>>6886620Loads of people have substance misuse problems that are more complicated than being addicted, I think time off the drink sounds like a good thing for you. 
It is sad that you have never had a friend. It doesn't have to be that way, if I can make and maintain friends then you can fren. My friends have seen me have psychotic breaks and they stick with me, so any of your quirks must be forgivable once you find the right people