>>22227487>>22227560Yeah I'm sorry guys I just actually couldn't hold it anymore today, not the pain of my body hurting but just the feling that it was pointless took some phenibut with the good intention of "uuh just today a bit" a few hours ago but as soon as it hit it spiraled in a full on relapse again. I'm so retarded I can't even call this a relapse, it's barely been 3 days... I'm just a fucking weak minded pathetic person idk I don't care anymore I think I will just overdo it to the point where I will either die or help will arrive by itself I also don't fucking know what I'm gonna do about work tomorrow since I told them I'd have recovered by then but at the moment I don't even fucking care anymore. I'll probably never have the motivation to touch chem again but whatever I sucked at it anyways I was basically just forcing myself to do it anyways
yeah so much to that
>>22227528 "great intellect and spirit" duh
I wish I could at least respond to the long posts but my brain is in no state to do so at the moment but thanks for putting in the effort either way I at least tried to read them
