>>19505608I lied I'm a y3 however I can control my other 4+1 sense better than sight
Learning to distinguish between the fake monologue and your true voice is a part of growing up. I learned to do it when I found Jerry Marzinsky. Furthermore, I began to notice that "my thoughts" had inertia. If you repeat something enough times, it continues even after you stop the intention to monologue. This echo had a different "texture" than my willful thoughts. So I studied it until I could distinguish between the two.
This is when it got scary. As you know, when you notice them, they notice you. It never got so bad that I thought I had schizophrenia, and sometimes they were helpful. But it still was weird as fuck. I began to think that God was speaking to me. I know, I sound schizo, but I assure you I never met the qualification for that disease. Furthermore, I also noted that every time I got closer to Christianity, the voices got more aggressive. Sometime after, I began to become interested in subliminal messaging, so I learned how to spot airbrushed messages. The problem was that I also began to see numbers everywhere, including in my walls and in the texture of my pants. It's like there is a dial in your brain for intuition and if you go too far you begin to hallucinate. I was afraid of going insane. Needless to say, I stopped and became convinced that subliminal messages weren't real and that I had deluded myself into seeing them by watching too many conspiracy theories.
>>19505618 The head is there to keep your brain from falling out of your skull. It's a constrictive and limiting energy, but when used wisely it can guide the expansive and chaotic energy of intuition. It's not about "golden mean" it's about exercising both at the same time to the best of their ability. The intellect is active and using it entails a manipulation of information, intuition is passive and using it entails letting the information come to you. Their union is what we call intelligence.
