>>11619299>>11619269Brother, i understand you. I'm in a similar situation, though i am a bit younger, but i got no qualifications aside from several dropped courses. Most of my friends are drifting away, some moving to Europa and even Japan, and i'm happy for them. They are moving on with their lives. They sometimes want to meet or just talk, but i feel so embarassed and self-conscious, that i always end up making some excuse not to do so. I also contemplate suicide every single day. This year i was really close to end it all... But i can't bring myself to make my parents sad, and i know it would devastate them.
From mine -- and several others here -- perspectives, you seem like a VERY well-qualified person. If i may suggest, you can easily find a lighter job, and work your way from there: get some time for yourself, but keep in contact with your folk and family if you want; start new hobbies, stuff that you've always wanted to do, but never got to do because of study and whatnot; go on hikes and admire the beautiful countryside and florests of your your country and Britania as a whole, etc.
I find that investing yourself in your hobbies is a great way to distract the mind... and potentially a good way to meet new people, too. Stuff like taking foreign language classes, or RPG groups, for example, are good places, i believe.
I wish you the best of luck, brother. I am cheering for you, that you may find your happiness.
