>>6439629>>6439715I know that feeling of seeing someone and its just hits you where it hurts, i ran into my ex randomly at a fair once. Soon as she seen me she smiled, and i swear it was like a baseball bat to the chest. Absolutely horrible.
If thats how you feel about life, its better to get it out and say than to let it fester inside you. I think the regret over it all is just getting to you, making you feel like everything is your fault. I know its rough to say, but dont focus on everything that went wrong, cause chances are youre just wasting effort thinking about things that the other didnt even consider. Ive been there, its just really awkward if its ever brought up again and doesnt go anywhere.
Please just try to get a good sleep in, anon. Allergy medicine, melatonin, sleep aid, something like that in a nice, dark room. Plan something to do for the next day when you wake up, and go out and actually do it. This might not fix everything, but it would be a good step in the right direction to help you cope with it a little better. Ganbatte anon, everything will be daijoubu.