>>21010859Once you've spent long enough addicted to any substance you begin to realize that it's otherworldly. Blaming yourself can only go so far when even your subconscious can't explain the shit you are seeing or doing. Anyone who wants to quit needs to work on themselves, but only after they are free from their captor. I assure you this world is far darker than you can possibly imagine, and you are only separated from those who rely on unnatural strength by a single minute of hell.