>>13511391is it ever possible to take the bluepill after life of blackpills?
>extremly secular upbring>lost retarded booz and drug fucked teenager>go on a 2 year long backpacking trip>had a spiritual encounter with 'god' (was sober for 6 months at this point) on said trip. bright lights, overwhleming feeling of love, all the meme things that you hear about etc>4 years making sense of figuring out wtf just happened to me. get some real insights into the workings of lifei tried the Buddhism stuff but the people in such a scene want me to gouge my eyeballs out. tempted to see what Christianity has to offer. but can't get over the fact at the centre of it there is some old dude in the sky that is control of everything, or do i have this completely wrong (which is extremely likely)