>>12533451Ah I see. The existential crisis. While I'm sure you've learned some interesting things in your pursuit for answers but not the ones you were looking for.
I can attest as a fellow schizo that you are real anon. Now whether any of this is truly real is another question entirely. Regardless you shouldn't worry about things like that. It's completely outside of your control and the only thing you can control is how you view your current situation.
Neglecting yourself I can't advise though. Trust me I just lost a tooth and went through hell due to my own neglect. You're worth something to someone even if that's just your mom or your friends online. Somewhere someone wants to see you become a better version of you.
Even if it turns out I'm somehow the first person to ever show you any care it's a good point that someone cares about you.
Why are you so discontent with yourself?
