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My tup is fine with me divulging this.
So, you see that pic I posted? The one that tried to kill me is all the way to the left. Her name is Elise.
Now, early on, when it was just me, Izzy, and Sarissa (the snake), I was a little spooked. Izzy made Sarissa and I never knew till she introduced me to her. I had felt weird, alien emotions and could hear a sort of angry voice sometimes. So yeah, that was her. After that, I started being scared about "walk-ins", which I have decently strong opinions about now.
I don't believe fully formed tups come out of nowhere, and people who claim to have walk-ins probably don't go by that definition or have a different experience that is tangentially related to walk-ins. If you have a tup just "walk in" one day and are decently formed, it didn't come out of nowhere. There were probably hints of its existence prior and you might have accidentally created it.
I was very afraid of walk ins, and if you know anything about tulpamancy, you know tups develop through attention, basically. I was paranoid and that was all I would think about, even with repeated prompts from Izzy to “chill the fuck out”.
I told her that if anybody came to not let them in. I still don’t know what I meant exactly. But a week later, I was just messin around and she came to me. She told me somebody she called “Elise” tried to come in, but she didn’t let her in.
This unsettled me a bit, but I didn’t think much of it. This was around late October/very early November.
Later on, at the end of November, I had a paranoia spike. I saw a form I liked a bunch and began getting paranoid I was gonna accidentally make a tup out of it. I would try to block this thought and push it away as much as I could. This persisted until December 4th. Vanessa came to me that day, bawling her eyes out. I was scared and I was disoriented. Right when I accepted that and I calmed down, trying to calm down Vanessa, someone else came through.
