>>6314520You know what you say. It started getting worse after some time.
>>6314521I was having some contact with good people with similar interests, but I fucked everything when I tried to kill myself. I was feeling shittier every day I woke up and can't managed to get myself together. Then I started having appointments and got pulled out of my job and switched to welfare for a living. Should I try to get a job again? I'm pretty scared of fuck everything again.
>fetishesI have my fetishes and I accept them. The main problem is that I can't just rape little boys with a pussy that I don't have to begin with, so I start overthinking about it. When I could fap without feeling like shit (not because the fetish, but because my body) I regreted a lot because I wanted to cuddle after doing that with the little boys.
>desu if you're retarded enough to think your life is bad you should actually kill yourselfMaybe I am retarded somehow and my doctor still can't diagnose me correctly. I don't know. I'm too unstable.
>>6314527That's what I was going to say, but I was like that even when I was 5yo (23 currently) and nothing changed. I couldn't "man the fuck up", even if it was the correct thing to do. I couldn't deal with this shit and I still can't.
>>6314534Good point. The society here is kinda shit (is getting better slowly somehow). Maybe you guys have it more easy just from don't living in a shithole.
