>>3819025>be 20 some year old>get caught jerking off in public in my car while smoking weed at a uni I wasn't even going to>becomes a minor news story (my face wasn't shown but my name was said)>family kicks me out>my last friend lets me sleep in his shed in the back of his house if I pick up dog shit>haven't talked to my family in around 5 yearsI used to talk to them, go to movies together, my father even taught my bicycling at 12 very late in my life and it was the proudest moment of my young life as he said it made the years of teaching worth it. And I ruined it all.
What can I ever do to fix this shit?
I think I might just kill myself, but I'm to complicit in being where I am and not caring til I die.
