>>4614511I lately(read:all my adult life) struggle to find something I am passionate about. I used to thing going to a uni i liked would brung something out of me and so I never had this struggle while in school. I just had fun and was focusing on my friends, family and the teenage bullshiut we all did. But friend have come and gone, I got dumbed by the person I thought was the love of my life, and Uni is just going so bad I cant even pass a single class in the last 2 years...only my family had grown somewhat closer to me and I start to appreciate them more now that I see how important they are.
But to say i am happy right now is a fucking lie.I mean i am writting an essay on 4chan for fucks sake...I have hit the lowest point in my life I think, and I am terrified of what comes next. I dont enjoy anything anymore, all feels just pointless. My friends from uni have long since surprassed me in our subjects and that makes me feel left behind, and without an out. Truth is I dont feel I belong in that place. I was never good with math or the like why do I keep forcing myself I dont know...
I need to find something to actually do in my life, thats what I keep saying to myself. Is it as hard for everyone? Or do I have some sort of autism?I feel passionless and it pisses me off!
Ok enough rambling,.Sorry for wasting your time anon, I just needed this out there.
Have a good day.
