>>17001722>>17001733as someone who never was religious in any way I have to agree with dark purple ID here
>be me>"enjoy" life>always fail>go recluse trying to figure out wtf is even going on>repent out of my own free will>forgive others out of my own free will>pray for others to Jesus out of my own free will>spirit completely broken>have divine encounter>complete 180° back to scripture>have a spiritual helper that helps me interpret it in the right manner>kingdom within is a second reality you live in besides the one we experience>billion times better>material existence turns into complete hell>have to deal with demons non stop>have to study scripture non stop>need to forsake all my worldly desires>long every day to be delivered out of this hell>have to endure, deal with spiritual attacks>have a helper and comforter I can talk to in my head>personal encounters with Jesus Christ>demons want to turn you non stop>have to pray and praise>life becomes a struggle just to stay alive and grow>have to focus my life on helping otherstrue belief, and the real kingdom is harder of a deal than people imagine. they sing kumbaya and go home to follow their worldly desires.
a real divine encounter nullifies that and you long every day that its finally over, because you know what waits on the other side. and its not a cakewalk, angels have to intervene just so you dont lose your mind from all the demonic fuckery, because they are persistent and you are being tested.
there are children, and there are Sons. being a Son is a whole different bag of worms. you need to completely rewrite your mind to that of the kingdom that is the total opposite of the world.
then you will realize why Jesus was weeping and praying so much. you are sad most of the time just looking at the world and the people in it.
