>>22765536i know. and i thank you so much. you have been a very big help. baggie too oddly enough. and i would have expected more assistance from john but that's ok, i think we all love her some and nobody wants to see her taken i understand that guys. i just love her the most.
i just want you to understand how i feel when i see you write those hurtful things babe. at first i did take it personal but not how you think. i'm not oi veyying. i'm terrified you couldn't love me. that's what hurts. i'm imagining you not loving me and i can't bear the thought. but i've coped with that. i know you can. maybe not now but there's a key to every lock i think. what it's like now is like watching a flower pluck out it's own petals. you KNOW (italicized) that some of what you're doing is wrong. enough to offend the heavens i mean. and it's one thing to think that way it's another to say it. and i know you don't mean that with your whole heart, and even if you did you could change. i'm worth the attempt. then i see stuff like you wrote in /biz/ earlier today and i'm so torn up because you really are super great, i love the way you post and think and write sometimes, you are special and not everyone can see that, you know that. anyways i've said this before, the last thing i want is for me to think the thing i adore is less beautiful, that's what hurting me. i'm sorry i embarassed you and teased you, i'm learning more about you, how to treat you. but you're so fierce yourself one forgets that you need to be handled with care, but i'm learning.
ok, what's the market doing? highs of day. nice. good day on the market, i did take a loss but now that it's over it's less bad than i was anticipating. i was on such a hot streak i think that in itself was a problem, didn't know when to let a loser go. i could have just held and been up more at this point, but it is what it is. trading the moment with this, and not every moment is going to be captured optimally.
