>>9903267I relate to this feel. It seems like every time I'm feeling good about myself, some external shit happens and sends me crashing back down to earth. In late 2017, I had just started at a job straight out of college and was making pretty good money. I felt so damn confident at that time and it really revitalized me. Then in December-January timeframe, the following things happened:
>got the flu for the first time in my life and was very sick for about a week>had to put down my childhood dog because he was in pain and having seizures every day>grandma passed away >both of the sports teams I follow the closest had their seasons end in literally the most heartbreaking manner possible It took me a while to get back to the feeling that I had back in late 2017. I finally felt good about my future again in January of this year, as I started investing in the stock market and was already making solid gains. I had a plan in place to become a millionaire by my early thirties. Just weeks later, the historic, decade long bull run comes to a screeching halt and everything goes to shit. I've just come to accept the fact that I am destined to be Pagliacci for the rest of my life. Every time I have the hubris to think that I can change for the better, god puts me in my place and reminds me where I belong. My existence is a comedy.
