>>6594628What happened to the blog, though I'm nearly afraid to ask?
My state is a broken shell of what it once was. I used to hate it, now I burn every time it's dismissed, every time people just write it off. I want to be proud, and I want other people to feel pride. I want to help people I see making the same foolish if good-intentioned mistakes I have and achieve something better. It's stupid, but I can't help but fall to the poetic when I get going. I burn with anger and joy, frustration and hope, and it galls even more that I don't feel I can express it, and even moreso that I fear it won't help.
The side-community I was a part of got destroyed. Banned, doxed, and basically scrubbed off the map, small though it was. I feel like someone who survived a bombing by chance, in a way. Now I'm gunshy, sad as it sounds.
So I lurk about, popping in, rambling to the surging tide, because I know it'll all just wash away with the next refresh. Shouting my truth and wisdom at a street sign, as is the lunatic tradition. I'm sorry for being snide. I'm just angry, and it vents where it can.
I've been sorely tempted to try again, but every time there's a new wave of horror, people losing families and lives because they push against this tide of mediocrity.
