>>2670635>>2670771Looks pretty much like depression to me. I won't try to give you the cliche retarded advice because I've been there and I know it's useless. But in case it helps you even a little bit I want to tell you that I understand how you're feeling and that I truly hope everything gets better and you get to be happy because I'm sure you are a nice person and deserve it.
Have this cute anime girl too, hope it cheers you up a bit
