>>9874750Cont
Like was I doing this right, will This be fine to do, this one girl likes me but idk I just became a beta male and couldn’t do it for her. She was the thickest 5foot 2 sexy best of the dreams man. And me being a beta cuck ruind it. When I would smoke weed with the friends, we did a lot of weed, every single night I would be freaking out about my looks, my actions, my thoughts, ideas and beliefs. I started to hear my grandparents voices in my heads calling my name. J ended up getting a rebound with a freshman my senior year and that didn’t last because she smelt like fish lol. But that is a low. I got extra depressed. I tried to kill myself buy sowing (pls. No bully) Ibuprofen so my liver would internally bleed and kill me very painfully. I would always make girls who liked me somehow make them not want me because I like was scared of doing sexual advances. I didn’t want to be a perv or a creep so my anxiety would just make them not want me because I couldn’t sex them lol. 3 years down the line I still thought about HER like I never could let it go. I don’t k ow why. I would cry a lot I got into Midwest emo and stuff. My friends helped me with talking as I cried in their car on my way home from theater but they where really supportive and great guys. They showed me music, shows, and just good stuff. They really helped me out of it. I’m now in a 2 year relationship with this loyal bitch and I really had to go back in the closet cuss there no point in coming out. But this CUNY I’m with now is so cool and supportive my niggas she really makes it the best thing. We now live with each other and live well. I guess the only thing that came out of. Was forming anxiety and depression because some thot cuddling in your heart for a week then leaving this giant craving for that kind of love and affection that you’ve never had before. I just wanted to Love and protect her now she is with some guy who can’t even fix himself to support her.