>>7366028I honestly couldn't tell if they ruin, or instead, enhance the experience. On the one hand, these sudden realizations can be a turn-off if they scare you, if the hard truths of this insane world put you in a state of unease.
But they can, strangely enough, improve it: once you've tamed, gotten accustomed to these mental wanderings, they help you reach a state of pure nihilism, where you are nothing more than pure artificial feelings and emotions, where morals, obligations and laws are nothing more than empty words we've voluntarily stuffed meaning into. And at this moment, my mind is clear: I pleasure myself for no other reason than pleasure itself.
And what a wonderful moment it is. No more worries, no more fears, no more holding back.
