>>13004962As i was writing it it became evident that i'm jus rumbling so yea...
I think i'm trying too hard here. Having not much experience in that matter i try to force something but fail miserably. Most of this conversation is trying to get a different result from the one that i got. The same way i do all things.
And i think it because pretty evident once i said it. Simply agreeing with you would just end it long before that. Or maybe the fact that i started to have doubts regarding the 'no relationship stand' affected this whole thing. Dunno really.
I don't know you so it's kinda abstract, but i know for certain that the things we 'want' aren't necessary true to ourselves.
I wanted to be left alone but once i got precisely that, i instead started to crave more contact, as evident by me being here at all.
But in some ways, it's now different from the celibate thing, that can be achieved with simple passiveness. Something that came to me more than easily due to lack of interest in other people.
Self-reliance to remain alone requires effort, and that when confronted with my laziness crumbles to dust without any motivation to support it.
That being said, i wasn't really fake on purpose. It became something similar to talking with myself that has the unknown answers, that evidently proved to differentiate us in some ways.
>Deepest Dark Documentary 2021Sounds like some bait title aimed at ironic conspiracy theorists. Am i being judgmental now? I guess, but it can't be helped. Contrarianism means being insufferable.
