>>17367361>i disagreei post that because some retard is bound to get slightly upset at reading it
>how are you today?i had a kind of crazy dream and i think i get what being paralyzed from fear means now
for context ive always had a fear of space and a little of the sky in general, not exactly a fear of wide spaces because i dont feel anything for the ocean but just the thought of flying in a giant open space with so many directions to get lost in always made me scared, to a point where in games that had them i would refuse to use any airplanes
im okay with flying now but the thought of being in the big emptiness of space is still very much like that. just watching gameplay of elite dangerous or the x3 games makes me anxious
so the dream, it happened to be in minecraft. i was in the end, which is basically just space. i was on the edge of an island overlooking the emptiness, and there was also a bunch of indescribable shit going on but that paints it well enough
and it was just that, goddamn i cant recall ever feeling so scared at anything in my life. ive had dreams where i get chased down and stabbed but even then i didnt feel the fear i had then
i couldnt move a single inch because of the thought that id risk falling off that edge somehow if i went through any kind of motion, and i was down in a prone position because i didnt want the risk of even a gust of wind hitting me and making me move. thats actually what i feel like doing whenever im in a high-up place, the thought of standing over an edge is the same as just straight up jumping off it for me. i wouldnt say ive a fear of heights but ya its complicated
anyhow but at the same time i had this weird resolve to go to a certain place on the island i was in, so because i couldnt do that i was panicking, but i couldnt do anything about that either because the minimal possibility of falling off into space if i moved any bit. does that make sense?
