>>13131698A part of my family (mother, older brother and older sister) know about my problem, but we don't talk about it too often, except to my older brother, which is a psychiatric patient as well and have and wider point-of-view from the life. I tell everything about how I feel to him. Mom and sis just know about it, but they simply don't know how to help me to feel better.
Talking honestly, I would love to don't need to go outside anymore. Sadly, nobody respects it. Even my brother, who knows everything about my situation, makes me go outside almost everyday to buy cigar or stuff at the local market, and then I have to deal with strange people. I really hate doing that.
Another possibility was start living, even if it's just by crossdressing or something like that inside my house, as a woman... but even for me that part is very strange. A male wearing woman clothing is strange. I feel very bad when it looks to my appearance if I do it. I already tried it and it just didn't fit. Doing that made me feel worse in some points, because it just doesn't fits well. Women can dress like women if they want, as well as a guy can wear men clothing with no problem, but crossdressing is really strange for me. I don't think that it would work well.
Talking about my family again: my dad and the rest of the family don't knows about my problem and they are the sexist kind of person. There's an high probability that they, in the better situation, say "grow your balls, faggot" and then just ignore it. And that is if he don't expel me from my house, beat the fuck out of me and made a fucked up mess because of this particular issue of mine. My dad's side of the family isn't like the most comprehensive group of people.
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