>>3804337You have to fix yourself and cultivate a life and personality that people find engaging and valuable. This should develop naturally in a healthy person who had a healthy upbringing. But that's besides the point now.
Let's just clarify what's holding you back first; you think interest and motivation are the same thing. So if you aren't interested in something, you think you can't be motivated to do it. This has created a cycle of failure and apologia wherein, because you lack work ethic, you lack firsthand life experience, and therefor developed anxiety towards social interaction, and therefor became accustomed to feeling inadequate. The ego you have cultivated as a result of this is not healthy for you, society, or potential partners. You need to deny this you that you have cultivated to become better. That means no more shitting up boards for (You)’s and no more anime
