>>14386022I have dreams of becoming a soldier, a dictator, or a quiet engineer who lives with his wife. I want to write programs, play piano, write books, make movies, write concertos read books. Instead I wither away in front of a screen and panic about the next deadline. And once I'll finish university I won't change, who am I kidding, it'll be the same thing over and over again until I die. Just brainlessly distracting myself for a morsel of reprieve until I die from a heart condition. I want to be free. Live off the land, listen to no man. Build a bomb, build a gun, murder all the mafias. Ive got no idea what Im doing.
