>>16617678How awful. Quite an upbringing. I more than doubt finding your "second half", a girl , will mend the wounds. I wonder if you have discussed your harrows to anyone else besides the Anonymous. Of course, I express no judgment which is why I ask. One thing you should consider, is to understand the catalyst for these intrusive thoughts of pegging or cross-dressing. By "intrusive", I mean, I am unsure if you are open to the thoughts, and by "catalyst", I mean, under what circumstance initiates these thoughts.
As for the emotions expressed in your post, it was indiscernible, until otherwise described.