>>19036484I've had chances but ruined them because undiagnosed autism. The pain of missed opportunities is too great, I choose PORN to numb myself into sexual/intimate narcosis.
These last few months have been a literal free fall into Porn for me and I've finally gained a degree of acceptance of how permanent this lifestyle will be for me. My goal is to try and completely solidify what is left of my sexuality for Porn and only Porn.
I LOVE the idea of living in Porn Matrix. The erasure of real female contact and replacing it with the hyper-silicone perfection of airbrushed & lit images, glossy video, subliminal & binaural soundtrack and pulsing, flashing Porn Beauty.
Our reality is what we make it to be. I choose reality to mean Porn. I am fully committed to Porn.
It's too late.
I used to be scared of this stuff - this addiction - this unknown, self-hating hell of dopamine. Now, I actually enjoy gooning, it feels so good embracing this twisted fantasy.
I really, really, love Porn. I'm currently edging for 12 hours everyday. I hope that by the end of this month, my whole body can't function without Porn. I want to neurologically rewire myself for complete and total PORN dependency. Porn is my oxygen. Porn worship is as natural as breathing.
