>>8558989It's not that big of a deal, I appreciate your kindness anyway!
>>8559003Honestly? When I start feeling too comfortable, it kinda feeds into my ego in a way that I find really uncomfortable - sometimes I feel narcissistic - developing delusions of grandeur, sometimes I feel 'disconnected' from people, etc.
When I'm treated poorly, it 'normalizes' me, kinda balances me out in a sense. I hope that makes sense?
Most people assume it's a kink. It -does- make me feel good, especially if the hatred and disdain / disgust is authentic, but I don't get off to it.
