There was a recent post on here about the degeneracy of lesbians. As a lesbian, I read through every thread and it really stuck with me. I haven’t been able to stop thinking about why I am this way.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=G1-XSNjrGdII’m not your typical LBG. I’m red pilled, can’t stand LGBTs, I’m in shape and attractive, no daddy issues, no abuse, great childhood, nuclear family, stable job >100k.
As a young girl I was a tomboy, but I was always attracted to boys and even had a few non- serious boyfriends. In high school I started to realize I was attracted to women and began to think of myself as bisexual.
I slept with a couple of men in college and post grad and had opportunities to date, but instead I pursued women. At some point in college I stuck with the lesbian label. I don’t know why I chose this path and I wonder what happened to my natural heterosexual instincts.
I decided to post this after watching porn today. I’m hardly an addict, but when I do watch it’s always straight amateur porn. Today I cried when it was over because I thought of my sad reality which is lesbian bed death. It’s not the worst thing I guess. I’m basically just an incel. But then I started to think of the few men in my past and googled them to see what their lives are like.
I feel like there’s no turning back now and even if I could it wouldn’t want to. I’m currently in a long term stable relationship with a female. She’s my best friend and we recently went to the fertility clinic to discuss making a test tube baby.
I’m not going to killmyself like some of you will suggest. I’m a productive member of society that works hard, stays in shape, handles my business and helps others when I can. I have a good life, but I can’t stop wondering how the fuck I got here.
Just looking for some thoughts on this since I have no one to talk to. My friends and family have known me a lesbian for the majority of my life.
