>>4124878I'm going to fail my courses and I hate myself because of it, and I realized I really don't want the career I thought I wanted. On top of that I'm about to lose 2 teeth because of dentist's fuck up over 2 years ago, which is also causing constant discomfort and pain but I'm too stubborn to go back to the dentist because I have major trust issues after my mom gave me over to the government because she thought I was evil, that was 11 years ago. I'm trying to get close to God but I keep fucking up because of my relentless desires and this elusive terror that takes me away from focusing on the present moment. It doesn't help that I'm arrogant as fuck and narcissistic.
