>>16967025fun is a way to look at it.
If anything she's a reminder of just how alone I am. She knew it too, and would frequently pick at me for it.
At some point, if you continue down this path of conversation, I'll get into more nihlistic and existentialistic terror type topics, and how it relates.
Be careful, I may not be a complete schizo but I will rant like one. Have a loona.