>>9144984So it seems that you are in a constant battle with yourself. This may or may not mean that you subconsciously connect things that you hear to happiness. Even if thats not the case it is still a part of you. It is something that can be shaped according to your wishes. And as it is a conflict within yourself it may be considered a test. For if you lose to your own self how can you expect to progress in life itself? Your own strength will determine whether or not you will find happiness you crave so much. The Lord may reinforce you with kind word but your actions are crucial in the end.
>>9144990Fear accompanies us throughout our life. And from your words i can tell that you care very much about being accepted and loved. It is only natural. But i wonder for even though you talk about relationship and partnership you focus your attention predominately on the sexual part. It may be flawed way of looking at things. True it may be that body that is connected but the soul is what is a core of human being. Body may be destroyed but the soul even if polluted may be brought back to the light. Ability to forgive for the sake of love is a virtue of not so many. And if even now you are not convinced just seek out people you want to interact with as often as possible. Human relations are based of trust. The longer you know someone, the better you know them, the more you can trust them. Of course i don't want to sound arrogant or all knowing but still sex is just a bonus not destination.
And thank you for your kind words, they mean much to me. Bless you and may your dream of finding the one come true for i can see your intentions are pure at heart.
