>>13962027exercise obsessively, use your self loathing as fuel, every time you feel like you're worthless take it out on yourself with pushups, pullups, and burpees. Eat healthy food. Deny yourself your cravings, using the same self loathing. Eat mushrooms intentionally. Go out to the woods by yourself with a big bag and tell yourself you want to see a way to heal yourself. When you get ideas about how to, execute on those ideas, don't get lost in the glow of "I had a great idea" Continue to deny yourself pleasurable things until you experience real and lasting gratitude for every breath you take.
