>>914362Shhh, keep living, in a few months you'll reach the part where you turn that hatred into compassion without being a cuck, and you'll begin to appreciate the natural world (or what I assume is natural--we may never truly know what is real and what is manmade, but that doesn't make it less beautiful) and those who appreciate it as well. Also, music.
Go outside for a half hour. Go for a walk in nature. Your entire mindset will temporarily change. Trust me, it's great. feel so confined in my house, but free, capable, and like everything will be okay when I'm going for my bike rides, even when I'm covered in sweat and loathing the shower I'll inevitably have to take, because atl east I can do it.
Everything will be daijobu, anon. Two months ago I developed a crush on someone and what started as motivation to better myself for their sake morphed into bettering myself for my sake. I've lost 30 lbs in the past two months just from eating less and going on 2 30 minute bike rides. It's so fucking easy. Now I can see the bones underneath my skin move when I type, when I couldn't very well a few months ago. Isn't that nice?!
It can be nice for you too!! Ganbatte!!!
