>>13152265I struggled before too anon. I just didn't see it. And no matter how much I studied and delved into religions in general, I simply became agnostic. But something happened where I started to realize that we were all being deceived by a great evil. It started hitting me around pizzagate times. I started to realize that we were being manipulated, turned into narcissistic drones addicted to sex and vice. I saw it in other people, in porn, in media, government, movies, music. This evil was everywhere. And what hurt the most is that I realized it was in me.
I started to realize what Jesus was truly talking about and what he's trying to save us from. I realized why the jews killed him. It wasn't just an intellectual understanding, but a deep one. I started to truly understand that I was deceived in trying to find Christ through knowledge and intellect, instead of letting go of that notion that we're conditioned to uphold as the ultimate way of understanding. There's a deeper truth when you let go instead of compiling knowledge.
I wrote this in an older thread when someone asked why it seemed so hard to believe in God. Maybe it will help too.
>>330546016Jesus truly loves you and I hope you can return to him anon.
