>>12625618lost 4000 word reply
great
see this is why I use omnichan, browser is just dumb
and you can't refuse if you are indebted to the state, only private loans
>save that money13£ is not a lot for once a month
in fact if you don't spend that much minimally once per month people start thinking you're an impoverished hobo and that's not something young men with reputation like us want to stick on them
it's not a lot of money to save, it's not worth saving if it's all you're gonna save no matter how long the plan is
you can always borrow as much from anybody and they won't even expect a return until they themselves need a borrow
>firsthow long did you date
did you date even?
did you love her
did she love you
did you buy her presents
did she buy/make you presents
did you visit her/she visited you?
did you hold hands, hug, kiss for hours, talk nice things to each other like a nice tebder couple? did you have any foreplay before (dryhumping, jerking off, fingering, fellatio, cunnilingus)? did you cuddle? from what I gathered (and that's with limited info) she teased you, you broke under pressure, you two fucked in the bathroom and you threw up never to have sex again
it's like you never passed on from that point, like you're still stuck in that juvenile stage where it's minor social interactions then sex
if you did have all those things I listed... great, I'm glad you did and I'm sorry it didn't work out... if you didn't- well that's what happens when you don't play female games- you get hurt and scarred
nobody desserves a rough first one and if you didn't have all of those before yours you definitively got traumatised
virgins get easily bonded and you two didn't seem to get bonded- that's a strict implication something went wrong and that something has been playing with your mind ever since and nobody you talked to about it before took it seriously because you two were 14 and nobody expected long term consequences
people go past molestation-as you seem to have...
