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>it had been nearly a decade of just pouring my mediocre scribblings
>the rudimentary lifestyle of work and loneliness was something I became accustomed to once more
>still, this work was not enough for me to live on my own
>all of my inheritance money was spent
>it's all gone
>my wife, my step-daughter
>my friends have nearly forgotten me
>and time after time I felt heartbreak, and every time it felt the same as before
>Sonia was married in 1933
>I've seen it all
>I've seen success
>I've seen failure
>I've seen a high school dropout manage to survive on his own for forty-six years
>and I've seen providence interfere with the deep blues felt when I was alone so many times
>now I'm forced to move into smaller and smaller spaces with my only aunt
>and it's no better than what it was in the beginning
>then a revelation came to me
>in early 1937, I received knowledge of yet another condition I had accumulated
>I remained quite curious about it
>and the bad news had came to me hours after examination
>I was diagnosed with cancer of the small intestine
>I had it for quite some time, in fact
>this resulted in severe malnutrition due to the fact that I ate little to afford the mailing of letters
>in a state of endless pain, physical and mental I was tested by providence
>my grotesque, soulless body had merely withered in months
>and I had no idea why
>this entire time I lived without realizing
>and I wonder
>was my choice with Sonia worth it?
>were the years of my chosen solitude worth it?
>was I grotesque?
>was I the dreaded outsider that I thought I was?
>did my grandfather really go through all of that work for this?
>were the bullies correct in their notions?
>was my stubbornness justified by reason?
Apologies; apologies to you all.
