>>15892490If you're already subscribed to such a belief and use an imageboard, then no advice is really going to help you much. It's up to you if you're hopeless or not. You will be as long as you keep telling yourself so. I think you have a good chance from what you've told, if you just tried to act on some things and put in the effort.
But anyhow, even if you really are hopeless, it doesn't mean that you should end everything. I don't think that it defines your worth, or however you would put it. Personally, you're alright. Just very unlucky.
And everything at the moment must feel jaded, but you can still find things to have fun with. Could be anything. May not feel like doing it yourself at the moment, but chances are you'll just run into something through whatever you consume already, sooner or later. Being hopeless doesn't mean not being able to enjoy life, in whatever form.
Again, sorry. Wish the best for you.