>>12893219>>12893440You should slap something together for tomorrow morning. You're having difficulty articulating your horror right now, which strongly suggests you're not really suicidal. That's good! Doesn't have to be something grand. Just get it done. It will take your mind off the formless dread suffocating you. You don't know what you want? Congratulations, you've been paying attention, and you recognise the dominant belief system. ABC: Always Be Changing. Support the jillions of service providers to help you along the way. Never arrive. A whole lot of people feel like you do right now, so not being alone might make you feel better! Things will change fast over the next 10 years. They'll get a whole lot worse for a lot of people, but there'll be opportunities too. Maybe you'll meet some like-minded folks who you'll feel at home with. Right now isn't about conquering or embracing some meme mentality. It's just survive and see how it all pans out, and if the opportunity seems available, to take a role in helping it turn out somewhat, in some small way, how you'd like to see it.