>>9856441Yeah, but it's been going on for so long now that it's basically just a passive thought.
Like I usually think about it when I go to bed.
Just thinking about being beheaded or blown up.
But I'm never actually going to directly do it.
I give myself just enough value that I'm better off alive than dead.
Life sucks, but losing friends and family sucks too.
I don't wanna put anybody through that shit.
I've lost enough friends of my own to know.
