>>11417510Great thread. Also, dude. I identify.
You have to WANT to stop it like it's a rage. This rage will lead to faith. Read BAP, Sun and Steel from Yukio Mishima, Prometheus Rising from Robert Anton Wilson. And if you're feeling dangerous and have your discipline down I found Georges Bataille extremely useful in understanding why the profane was such a powerful drive in my life. Ultimately this path will absolutely lead you down the road to mysticism, faith, and the esoteric. There's no other way to really do it. Study the esoteric. I hate the arguing between Christ-tards and Pagan-tards. There's something valuable in all these traditions and everyone has a different path. NEVER doubt the power of physical fitness. If you feel an urge to fap, or to hit tinder, go out and fuck, use a drug, fail in any way... lift instead.
I lived much of my life as a libertine - high end fetish parties, lifestyle BDSM, dominatrices, all that shit. I had a lifestyle slave girl in my early 20s, and was a personal slave to a Jewess prodomme in my late 20s. It's inseparable from my personality but it's vastly out of control. The porn, the cheating, the compulsion. Have you ever used speed or blow? Because that shit greatly aggravated my risky behavior when I was in my 20s. Nightlife scenes were killer but I probably shaved at least 10 years off my life.The truth is, sure hedonistic Dionysian energy is cool and extremely powerful. But you have no business indulging in that shit if you haven't maxed out your potential as a man. Any time you feel like fapping remember too, "Have I lifted", "Have I studied the... instrument, career goal, language, reading list, etc" that I choose myself to accomplish.
The key isn't removing sexual power from your life, or sexual urges, it's separating programmed sexual behavior from your true Apollonian masculine self. Become worthy, then slay pussy in whichever way you chose, but always become worthy first.
