>>15262697>21>not very much. The approval of others is not something I ever truly craved.>I've let go of all desire, experienced ego death, and have acheived what I would interpret as enlightenment, in the sense that I now see the world for what it is to the best of my ability.>futureDoomed.
I'm trapped in a major city with my family still. They don't know or care, even with gas stations remodeling to prepare for 10+ dollar gas, they're convinced everything will be fine.
Nobody cares about whites, not even whites. We may survive, but paradise isn't coming back. We let it slip through our fingers, and I never even had a chance to defend it, as badly as I wanted to.
Now I'm waiting for the incoming hyperinflation and crime increase to drive everyone in this shitfilled city to eat eachother. I don't have enough liberty or ability to do much. Can't even drive. Stuck. No girlfriends, no education, not enough time to finish the creative works I was working on, just a gradual removal of every dream I had, over and over. I can't stand watching this happen so unjustly to a race that never deserved it, but I can't do a damn thing, so fuck this gay earth. Even the void would be better for me than to have come into this world to face nothing but the worst dissapointment and anger a person could have gone through in such a short lifetime.
I'm done. Just bring on the chaos already so I can be truly free, once and for all, so I can die with some amount of hope.
