>>13630597You will never be a christian. You have no codex, you have no morals, you have no shred of good in you. You are a heretic who sold its soul for the goods of this world, becoming a prostitute of satan.
All the validation you get is from other lies-spreading degenerates like your kind. Outside your head, all other religions, including REAL Christians, they spit on you. Your parents approve of it because they don't know better, nor do they care. Your "friends" only want to sniff your wallet for freebies and imaginary good boy points they'll never get.
Real Christians are repulsed by you. Nearly 1000 years since the catholic schism have allowed orthodox men to sniff out frauds with incredible efficiency. Even Copts and Ethiopians look uncanny and unnatural to a real christian. Your lack of saints knowledge and fundamental beliefs is a dead giveaway. And even if you manage to get a drunk hobo with you to convert, he’ll turn tail and bolt the second he gets a finger of suspicion.
You will never be happy. You wrench out a fake smile every single morning and tell yourself that Christ loves you, but deep inside you feel the emptiness of your soul creeping up like a weed, always present, ready to drag you to hell the moment you draw your final breath.
Eventually it’ll be too much to bear - you’ll think there is no God, ditch the religion and resent every "christian" you ever met. Your parents will be disappointed, but uncaring. You will never enter a real church, or learn of all of the saints painted on walls and their wonders, or get ANY of your sins ACTUALLY forgiven, or get to experience The Holy Spirit within you.
This is your fate. This is what you chose: a mockery, smokes and mirrors. At any point you could have returned to the true faith, to see what actual Christianity truly is. But no. You will never do it, not because you can't, because of your pride and your arrogance.
You will never be a Christian.
