>>15271171i might sound like an incel idk, i'm not gonna gatekeep or pretend to be an oldfag but the influx of normalfags over my time has gotten a little annoying. i would say that i'm envious of them more then anything, i thought this place was for losers or weirdos like myself and sometimes when i catch a normalfag i get uncomfortable i guess, doesn't really feel like my safehaven anymore, and for some reason i get sad when people on here, at any board, say they are in a relationship or sad about their ex, are starting a new family, that they just had sex, or something along those lines, idk. i know i spend too much time here but i would leave if it were easy, i can't relate to anyone here anymore, i don't hate anyone and i swear i'm not gatekeeping but yeah. i mainly just stick to nerdy generals on /vg/ and dead boards like this one so i can avoid them as much as possible, i can't stand big boards honestly, i've also had a hard time going back to society because of covid, gained a lot of weight and i don't want anyone seeing me like this, didn't have any friends before the lockdown, so this place is my only communication with the world atm which is why i can't just leave and get a life, i also don't feel comfortable posting somewhere were i have an identity and people can know who i am, believe it or not i've gotten so mentally fucked that i've grown social anxiety on the internet of all places as well, even on this site too. ehhhhh sorry for the blogpost