>>12216491First time quitting cigarettes was a wild rodeo for me, i actually thought that i was going bipolar, i had these crazy moodswings and intrusive thoughts late at night, when i wanted to sleep.
Now, i’ve been cycling through the smoker/nonsmoker phases for 4 years now.
Started to smoke in HS.
Quit for the first time at 24, because i started browsing /fa/ and they brainwashed me to think about the smell of smoker clothes and breath.
After about 4 months after quitting, i get these crushingly melancholic and longing feelings of nostalgia, where i would just light a cigarette and enjoy it.....and soon after i’m back on puffing the straw.
Then, after smoking for the next 4 months, i again, start realizing that my breath and clothes smell like cigarettes + guilt for wasting shekels.
So i’ll quit smoking again for another 4 months till i again fall for ciggies.
Cigarettes to me aren’t even just something to get addicted to, it’s like this fucked up nostalgic part of me, when i was younger and had barely any care in the clown world.
