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i was (pretty much still am) unhealthfully obsessed with a youtuber for the past 4-5 years. i used to base my schedule around their usual upload times along with doing a thousand other creepy things that are too numerous and cringey to list off. the obsession got to a point where i could barely watch them without getting sick and i stopped watching their videos completely. soon guilt started seeping in, intensifying the negative reaction so that even seeing their face/name/channel related symbols made me want to vomit.
for the past 3 years ive been thrown into minor panic attacks every time i see a notification for their videos, which are thankfully infrequent, and haven't tried watching their videos in 1.5 years. this is the first time ive told anyone about this. i miss them.
