...I am fag? Am I gay if I get hard to the thought of me dominating men?
Anonymous ID:b8nt+XQr No.16688672 View ViewReport Quoted By:
I want some outside perspective, because I don't really know how to feel about myself.
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Basically, I don't think of myself as gay - I'm not effeminate at all. I am not romantically attracted to men. I don't want to be intimate with them. I have only kept girlfriends.
However, I've had sex with quite a few. I'm not even immediately sexually attracted to men, but what does get me hard as fuck is watching men submit to me. I love master-slave roleplay, men worshipping my muscles, and I love making them my bitch by sodomizing them. I love rubbing their prostates, watching them writhe in my lap, hearing them moan, scream, giving them better orgasms than they'll ever get with their wives and girlfriends. There's some kind of rush watching a guy shoot his load with your cock in his ass that I can't explain. That, specifically, is what gets me really hard. I've let my girlfriend watch me do this to random men, and she gets off on it. I made her lick up this guy's cum once after I fucked him, then I fucked her while he watched.
I'm 32 now and I've been dominating guys like this since I was 17. I rationalize it by viewing it separately from sexual and/or romantic intimacy and attraction. I get off on dominating men. I also get hard when in a fight. I feel like it's the same kind of phenomenon. I've jerked off to memories of the couple of times that I've knocked guys out. I wouldn't say I get turned on by violence, but "power". Destruction gets me hard, I don't know why. I love to smash shit.
Is this faggot behavior? Anyone else feel the same kind of shit?