>>10709745what you seek is beatitudo. the beatitudes. a longing for more than the material things of this world. without god we are restless. keep reading the gospels. bishop robert barron has great youtube and podcasts that explain a lot about the early church fathers and how scripture is SUPPOSED to be interpreted. it's divine revelation that is centuries old but so rich in context that we continue to find relevance in today's world. the church fathers were geniuses and bishop really helps explain who says what about very particular topics that you may be curious about. don't stress so much about a binary idea of belief/non belief, just keep learning and your familiarity with HIM will grow stronger. welcome to the kingdom, brother.
