>>20872300I kind of already knew that... It's just my dream that someone comes and accepts me like a mother that (((should))) always love her child. I do believe there is a slim chance that even ugloids like me with bad personalities have someone somewhere who'd be attracted to me, it just isn't at all guaranteed that I meet that person, quite the opposite rather.
>>20872304mimimimi you know what I mean, if you don't you have 0 (zero) self awareness.
>>20872323Well it's not like I'm going to incorporate some anons thoughts 1:1 into my life, I was more wondering what others think.
A big reason why I am so socially isolated (no friends, never go out, only communicate with people in my free time at the computer) is that social interactions take a huge amount of energy from me. It's not like I'm very bad at them, I'd say average, but each day where I go through a lot of interactions with people I'm just so extremely exhausted afterwards. This is because I'm never really myself (I mean who is), controlling and regulating my emotion just takes me more energy than others. Maybe I'm also just overdoing it with managing relations and stuff because I was bullied in childhood. In any case, I think if I was myself and someone could like me, they'd already fit all my standards anyways and would be satisfied with what I could give them in return.
