>>9703595I feel you OP. My mom was a 15 year old meth head who let men abuse me and dragged me all over the states after robbing convenience stores and ratting out her friends. I actually was in university but my student loans got screwed up due to clerical errors or something. Now I owe the school like 8k for tuition and can't go back. I work somewhere that takes advantage of me making 34k a year. I started hormones as a teenager so I look like a girl and I wouldn't be able to go back on that without breast reduction etc and my voice never changed to sound like a guy so I'd be a total freak. I'm changing all the other parts of my life though. No drugs for over 2 years and I'm in a good relationship and working on starting an apprenticeship as an alternative to university.
I'll never be able to be in the same room as my mother again but you do have to move past it. I get the suicide thing but if you stop drugs and go full /sig/ things will get better... you just have to learn to let go of your mom I guess. I know it's always going to affect my life but I am learning to move past it. You can too OP