>>19369244Bro, I feel you so hard. I went through all the same emotions as you did, having a similar upbringing, and never having any real social life, or gaining very limited social experience. I KNOW the intensity of the emotions your feeling, the resentment and seething passion against the injustice. And I'm gonna tell you, man, that you feel that way because you still seek to be part of the very same system that rejected you. You still want to participate. And that is where you are making a mistake.
Once you stop caring, and just simply check out and do your own thing, do whatever you want, and behold yourself to nobody, and simply deprive the system of your own potential which they shunned you for but still so desperately need, once you become simply apathetic to the crying and kvetching of those who fucked you but still need you, you start to feel a calmer sense of freedom.
It doesn't undo all the damage that was done, what you should have been given but were deprived, but you can still go you own way and opt to check out, and leave the rest of them to their own devices.
I don't know how old you are, you're probably pretty young still from how and what you typed, but I'm telling you man, those passions subside as you begin to reach your 30's and beyond, and you just kind of stop caring, because they don't care about you. I won't say that it gets "easier", per se, but it does weigh on your mind less.
Then again, maybe I have just become completely dead inside lol. An animated corpse.
